Things have calmed down a bit, so I have time to write a status report of what’s up with me.
The weekend sorting out Grandmom’s house and going to her funeral was emotionally difficulty, but socially and logistically fine. There was no drama, and only very minor snags in getting things sorted out. We’ll probably have to make a few trips back and forth to TN to resolve some more stuff, but it’s just a matter of getting it all done.
It hit me hard partially because it was so sudden — just a few weeks ago we were at her house over Christmas break, and we had no idea that there was any problem. The other part is because, in many ways, Grandmom had become much like a mother to Michelle (and by extension, me and David) over the past few years, so it was more like losing a parent than a grandparent.
But life moves on, and so do we.
Work has been its usual blend of awesome, exciting, challenging, stressful, and systemically chaotic. For every time I have to toss documents onto my netbook to make sure I can work over the weekend to get things done, there are the times when I get to play Assassin’s Creed 2 and Mass Effect 2 as research for work.
I admit I was reluctant to get back to work on Tuesday after the emotional rollercoaster, but I also know that if I don’t force myself to be social, I’ll become a hermit and withdraw from people even further. Luckily, I have a lot of friends that I’m privledged to call co-workers, and between the camaraderie and the personal feeling of accomplishment I get when I can check items off of my list, I was able to feel more myself by the end of the day.
Weirdly, the past few months have seen a resurgance in my social life. I’m going out to dinner more often than I ever used to, and it seems that it’s a rare weekend where we don’t have something going on. (For example, this weekend is our monthly Requiem LARP, and then we have tickets to see the WWE Royal Rumble here in Atlanta.) I’m in a few different games, and we often go out to concerts, shows, and events.
I’m often not a very social person, usually happy to sit at home, but I have to admit that it’s been really nice going out and being with other human creatures. Of course, sometimes I’ve had to bow out of a social obligation to get work or writing done, but it’s been nice to have the option to hang out with a diverse group of people with varying interests. Plus, it’s good for me to get out of my head for a while and not burn out on the endless projects I can end up giving myself to do.
Right now I’m working on side projects like Whitechapel and my podcasts and my anthology fiction when I have bits of time. For a while I was able to juggle it all, but with Grandmom passing I’m having to prioritize everything on my plate. Still, Whitechapel is getting some good buzz, and I have some notes for the ghost story I want to write in the next couple of months. Like Justin, I’ve got a lot of scraps that I want to stitch together, so I might as well keep driving that into stuff that sees the light of day. I’m also continuing to learn from my peers and trying new things all the time about my craft.
Honestly, I haven’t been paying a whole lot of attention to it. I understand some stuff is going on, and some people are excited by some stuff and angry at other stuff, but after nearly 13 years of regular club participation, it seems like people are always excited by some stuff and angry at other stuff.
Mass Effect 2
Did I mention that I’m playing Mass Effect 2? Because I am. (Well, not at the moment. Right now I’m getting ready to go play D&D.)